Prayers That Keep It Real for: People Holding Bitterness
Real Talk: Are you mad at someone for something they said or did to you six months ago, a year ago, 5 years ago, 10 years ago. If so, you need to get over it. Not to say that what you are mad at wasn’t hurtful or isn’t legitimate. But, do you know how much of life you have missed out on? Do you understand that the very thing you have been praying to God about has not come because you haven’t forgiven the other person? Have you blocked out your bitterness and convinced yourself you are not bitter that it’s the other person with the issue? Check this out. Hopefully, this will open your eyes and be the beginning of a healing process for you.
Bitterness immersed my soul and took over. Before I knew it, I was eating from a bitter cup. I was lingering in my own world of hate. Despising the people who have hurt me deeply. They should be punished for what they said and did to me. I have a right to hoard these feelings inside of me. After all I am the victim here.
I tend to like drama in my life anyway. I like to pick people off one by one. If you do something I don’t like you will immediately go on my black list. I will scratch you out of my life forever. It will be as if you never existed. You won’t ever have a second chance with me because I don’t have time for your petty games. I am above you. So, I will continually convince myself that you are the one who should live in misery.
So what if I isolate myself from you and others. Yes, I love to be alone because it is my protection and defense from you. I am focused and I don’t need you in my life trying to tell me the truth disrupting me. I don’t want to deal with my issues because it’s easier for me to make my case to others about your issues. I have brought you up in so many conversations because I wanted to make sure other’s heard my side of the story first.
You have wounded me and only God can open my heart to you. God may give me second chances but I’m not trying to give you one.
COPYWRITTEN 2007 (PLEASE DO NOT COPY OR DISTRIBUTE THIS PRAYER UNLESS AUTHORIZED BY AUTHOR)
